Trust is a big deal.
I have had problems periodically through my whole life with issues of trust. When I was a child, my mom and I moved a lot and that created a situation where reading people was difficult. I never got to know anyone and I wanted desperately to have friends and people I could trust and rely on. Once we got to a more stable situation in life, I was a preteen. We all know how volatile those years can be. The emotions, especially with girls, are very difficult to manage.
When I got to my teenage years, I still hadn't had the experience to know when someone could be trusted. I went through some really traumatic experiences in those years and made some really horrible decisions because of it.
Moving to a big city after graduation just complicated things for me. Some of the people I chose to spend time with and to be friends with were not good choices. A lot of things changed for me when I met and married Mr.B. He helped me to develop more skills in many areas and to live a better, more confident life.
In spite of how far I've come, it never fails to get me every time when I come up against a situation where I don't know if I can trust someone. In the past year, it has happened many times. I wish it was easier... and I wish I could KNOW if people are telling me the truth and how to fix it - especially people close to me. I know that this is part of the depression I've been feeling off and on of late. It is so frustrating to me.
Dee..
